Time To Move On

Time To Move On

Have you ever had that life actualizing moment when you realize that your life is moving forward but you have not advanced with it? That one moment that you always knew would come, you tried to prepare yourself for it, you told yourself that it would not be that hard, that you could handle it, and that you would be strong enough to not let it bother you…but it is here and you fall to pieces. That moment is right now for me. My life has been in motion for 5 years but I have never moved on. Hearing that you have someone new, that you are in love and that SHE is THE ONE…my heart is broken all over again. It feels just as if I have not spent the last 5 years without you. You were my first date, my first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first lover, and my first true love. The years we had together shaped my life and formed me the way that I am today. I have high expectations for everyone that comes into my life because you set the standard. I have never stopped measuring everyone against you. You were so perfect to me, and when I lost you I lost so much of myself. I have always known that I will never be as happy with anyone like I was with you. That is the truth to this day. I will always love you because you were the one that taught me how to love. You showed me how love should be and how strongly you can feel for someone. I have not found a love like that since that cold September day 5 years ago when I lost you. I have held on to the memories we shared, the pictures we took, the gifts we gave, and the love we had. I will always have a place for you in my heart because you were the first one I gave my heart to.